Tired

Happy Easter. God is alive. You do everything possible to help your children become law abiding God fearing children of God. You sacrifice so much for them.  However, at times, I feel they do not appreciate what I do or even care. My daughter is lost in the world and seems clueless. I pray that she is delivered from Satan's hold on her life.  Everyday my son complains and whines about EVERYTHING! No matter what you do, he complains. I am so discouraged and tired of their behavior. I know children are gifts from God but sometimes I have my doubts. Some days I just want to throw in the towel. I know I am not the only parent who feels this way. I pray one day the rewrds of my labor wil be appreciated.

I am so Tired

I was up until after 2:00 am working on my dissertation.  Today Trey and I went to two Easter egg hunts.  We had fun.  I will post a picture later.  I worked on my dissertation over 5 hours.  We will be at Disneyworld next week.

Updates

The following events have occurred in my life over the past two years:

•  I am still working on my doctorate degree.  I have finished my classes and I am now writing my dissertation.  I pray I graduate in December.
• Endia enrolled at AU.  She had to leave the second semester due to extenuating circumstances.  She returned in the fall of 2012 and guess what, she had to leave again.  If and when she returns to college, she will foot the bill.
• Endia returned home, got a job, quit her job, and moved in with her boyfriend in Jan. 2013. I am totally disappointed but guess what, this is her life.  I keep her in my prayers.
• The situation with Endia has made me really reflect on my life.  boy do I have MANY regrets and have not forgiven myself from past mistakes.
• Trey skipped kindergarten and attended Harmony School last year.  He was 5 years old in a classroom with 1st through 3rd graders.  We discovered (in late 2012) that he is ADHD.  He is now on meds (lowest dose) and doing well in the 2nd grade at Catawba Trial Elementary School.  His grades and behavior are great.
• Trey exhibits traits of giftedness and  ADHD.  
•  We moved to a new home in July 2012.  We live somewhat in the country and have a nice swimming pool in the back yard.  We bought a hot tub before Christmas.
• I am working full time at a charter school.  I am also taking a few courses towards certification in learning disabilities.
• h yeah, I earned another master's degree in education administration in 2012.  Hopefully, one day I will put it to use.
• I am still trying to figure out my purpose in life.  Some days I feel like crawling disappearing.
• My stepfather passed a way.
• I am trying to find a hobby besides reading.

Monday is Upon Us

Oh, how I dread Mondays. Why? Because I have to return to work and a long tiresome week. I enjoy my job, teaching students with special needs, but I don't enjoy the other crap that goes along with it. I long for the days past of sitting in my office doing absolutely nothing. Well enough of my job. I had an uneventful day. We went to church but unfortunately, did not return this evening because we got behind schedule and Endia needed to go to volleyball tryouts. Trey really wanted to go to Puggles. He had a shoebox filled with goodies for a child in another country. I was looking forward to my evening bible study. But things did not work out as planned. No use in crying over spilled milk, I must press on. As I close, I would like to thank God for always being with me and loving me regardless of my flaws.

Birthday Boy!

Trey will be 5 years old on tomorrow. Boy, how time flies. I still remember when he was born and my difficult pregnancy. Trey's birthday party was held on Super Bowl Sunday at My gym. There were 12 children in attendance and the party was GREAT! I even had fun playing with the kiddos. He received a lot of wonderful presents. The theme of his party was Monster Trucks. I could not find a Monster Trucks balloon but he wore a Monster Truck sweat shirt and had a Monster Truck cake. The cake was really cute. Thanks to the Bakery at Walmart, I was able to have dirt pet constructed and I placed Hot Wheel cars and Monster Trucks on the cake. I am also starting a birthday journal for Trey this year. On tomorrow, we will have a birthday walk at school. Before school, he will eat breakfast at IHOP, take pictures in the pm, and we will do something else fun.

Shame on Me

I haven't written on my blog in over 2 years.  So many things  have happened since that time.  I will provide an update later.  However, I am still struggling with keeping my focus on God.  There are so many distractions in life.  I will write more on tomorrow.