Wondering

I am sitting here are work just wondering.   I am wondering about life, God, my future, etc.  It is so difficult remaining close to God in this fallen world.  I fall short every day.  Thank God, we serve an awesome God who forgives us for sin and never leaves or gives up on us.  Sometimes, I want to give up on myself.  I wished od would speak to me in a voice which I can discern without a doubt.  Even if He did, would I obey everything He tells me.  Just wondering ...................