On My way to Vegas

I will be headed to Las Vegas next Wednesday with my mom and aunt.  I am looking forward to the trip but I am a little hesitant because I will be leaving Trey for six days.  He is having problems at the summer camp.  He complains every day and got into trouble two days in a row.  I pray he is okay while I am gone.  I have been working extremely hard trying to complete the two classes i am taking.  Both of the courses have a lot of assignments.  I am almost done with  the assignments.  I really need a break from home.  Sometimes I want to fly a way.

OMG

OMG!  It has been a month since I wrote an entry.  So much has happened since last month.  School is out. Trey received a reading award.  He was upset that he didn't get perfect attendance.  He missed two days due to an illness but they were excused absences.  Trey's final grades were: 94 (Language Arts), 92 (Math), and 92 (Reading).  He almost made all As.  I am proud of hi.  He has made a lot of progress academically and socially.   Trey received a lot of Cub Scout awards and has moved to the next level.

Two of my dissertation committee members who read the first three chapters of my dissertation.  Hopefully, I will be able to complete my proposal defense this summer.   I am planning on graduating this winter (December).  I pray I have a study site identified and have interviews completed in August.  I am taking two classes this summer for add on certification.  I have a lot of work to do for each course but will get it done.  the course end June 30th.

I am going to Las Vegas this month with my mom and aunt.  I didn't want to go but I am now looking forward to the trip.  I have purchased a couple of new outfits and have a new hair cut. Trey begins summer camp on Monday.  I will be working part time at USC beginning this month until December.  I will be working in my former position.  I also have an interview for substitute teaching on Tuesday.

I have not been invited for an interview for any of the teaching jobs that I apply for.  I was really upset about it at first but I realized that God does not want me in those positions.  I believe He has something else in store for me.  I need to believe and be patient.  I have realized that God wants us to constantly seek a  relationship with him.  I have also realized that man will hurt and disappoint you but God will not.  Don't put your faith in man.

Endia is still lost.  I pray every day that God will deliver and heal her.  Last week she called me hysterical because  of an incident that occurred between her and her live-in boyfriend.  She spent one night here and has been staying with girlfriends.  She suppose to return here tomorrow.  She still has not found a job.

Re-cap of Week

I haven't posted a blog in a while.  I have been BUSY made revisions to my dissertation.  I will be soooooooooooooo happy when I finish my doctorate.  I am so tired of it and I still have to do the research.  Earlier this week my dog was barking none stop since 6:00 am.  We finally figured out why he was barking.  There was a baby possum outside (gross).  I ran that one off and guess what, later in the day his/her sibling returned. Now, I dread going out in the backyard.  Critters gross me completely out.  I applied for a couple of asst. prinicipal positions.   I have applied for several teaching position and have not gotten one single interview.  When I dwell on this,  I become depressed.  I have to believe that God has something else better in store for me.   Some years ago, He told me I was more suited for administration but I have only had one interview for an asst. admin. position which was last year and I did not get the job.  The job is open again and I re-applied. I am waiting for that call for an interview.  I jnow it is coming soon.  My husband left on Thursday to go to Florida.  Trey and I will spend Saturday night at the Marriottt Hotel for some R & R. The hotel is across the street from our church.  We will eat Mother's Day breakfast there.   I am glad I quit my job.  I really wanted to be off for the summer and I really need uninterrupted time to spend om dissertation.  ThankYou God.

Trusting God

I just finished listening to a Joyce Meyer sermon on youtube. I really needed to hear this message.  Below is a summary of what I gleaned from the sermon:

• We can't hide anything from God, He is always with us.
• He should not have to expain all the "whys" to us.
• Focusing on the why does not lead to contentment.  It impedes our walk with God.
• We waste time trying to figure out the why.
• We most trust God and His timing.
• The Israelites took 40 years to get to the promise land because of lack of faith and questioning God.  The trip should have taken them 11 days.  We are misiing out on life by focusing on the why.
• Instead of asking why, ask God to strengthen you for the journey and to prepare you for His will.
• Don't spend so much time trying to figure out why isn't done that you forget the great stuff that God has planned for you.
• Enjoy what Jesus died to give us insead of living every day miserable, confused, discontented, etc.

God Bless!!

Pinewood Derby

Trey's Cub Scouts' Pinewood Derby was on yesterday. At the last minute, I decided to design a Skittles car.  It was very easy to make.  The car turned out cute and everybody raved about it.  Trey did not place in the race but guess what, the Skittles car won  trophy for Most Creative.  I was very excited bcause I am not crafty.  Below is a picture of the Skittles car and the trophy.

Quit My Job

I resigned from my job.  I now have time to devote to my dissertation so that I can graduate in December.  I am so looking forward to being home this summer.  I will be working contract but on my schedule. Praise God!

My bike came on Monday.  Trey and I went riding with friends.  We won't be able to go riding again until Thursday.  While riding near a lake, Trey almost rode into the lake.  A tree stopped him. Thank God!  Here are some pictures of my backyard.  My husband planted flowers toady and we are trying to get the pool ready to swim in.

Mom, can I jump in?

Look at the pretty flowers and palm trees near the fountain.

Wondering

I am sitting here are work just wondering.   I am wondering about life, God, my future, etc.  It is so difficult remaining close to God in this fallen world.  I fall short every day.  Thank God, we serve an awesome God who forgives us for sin and never leaves or gives up on us.  Sometimes, I want to give up on myself.  I wished od would speak to me in a voice which I can discern without a doubt.  Even if He did, would I obey everything He tells me.  Just wondering ...................

Animal Kingdom & Disneyworld Pictures

Here are some pictures we took at Animal Kingdom & Disneyworld:

Sick Child

Trey is sick.  Since the pollen has started falling, his allergies are out of control.  When he returned from school today, his teacher wrote a note saying he appeared tired in class today.  While putting him to bed, he had a nosebleed.  He tossed and turned all night long.  He woke up around 3:00 am.  I told him to go to his room and watch tv while I got a little bit of sleep.  I told him to the doctor who said he may be Florida. Trey coughed off and on for most of the day.  He had three nosebleeds today.  I am not going to send him to school tomorrow.  Trey had another nosebleed during the night.  I had to change the linens and he didn't sleep well.  Friday was pretty much the same as Thursday, nosebleeds, coughing, etc.  Trey seems to be feeling somewhat better today which is Saturday.  I had to change the linens again last night when he woke around 2 am with a nosebleed.  He finally went back to sleep around 3 am.  Trey woke up around 12:30 pm on Saturday.  He missed his soccer game.  Around 6:30 pm, he went outside to play.  He has been in the house since Wednesday.  I hope we have a more restful night tonight.

Feeling Better

We returned home from Florida on Friday morning.  I was going ti Charleston for the Cooper River Run but changed my mind.  I was emotionally drained.  We spent Thursday at Disney Quest which is located in downtown Disney.  It was fun.   I relaxed and read the entire weekend.  I am reading a wonderful book about the battlefield of our mind and how Satan uses negative thoughts to control our actions.  I am trying very hard to think and speak positively and not dwell on the negative.  The author also stresses visualizing positive outcomes.  I am also reading a autobiographical book about a woman who grew up in a religious cult and was sexually abused as a child.  through God's love and grace, she made it.  I returned to work today and I am tired!  rey andI are upstairs reading and relaxing.  Every 5 minutes he sneezes, due to his allergies.  Pollen is eveywhere.  Oh yeah, I have been wanting to find a hobby besides reading.  I decided to start bicycling.  Ipurchased a bike and hopefully, it wll be delivered this week.  It is a foldable bike that cah fit in my trunk.  Therefore, I can take it to the park and other places around town.  I hope both Trey and my bike can fit into my car.  I am very excited!! I hope to ride at least 2-3 times a week.  This will also be good exercise.  Also, I got the bike at  GREAT price.  Heres's a picture of it from Amazon:

Sick and Tired

We are in Orlando.  You would think we are having a great time.  Guess again.  the resort we are staying at is beautiful when many pools and activities.  Last night I took Trey to the pool.  they were showing a movie.  He told me he was finished swimming.  Therefore, I walked across the street to our condo to retrieve some dry clothes for him.  When I returned, he said he wanted to swim again because his friends were going to swim.  I told him no because it was getting cooler and I had taken his swimwear to the room.  Well to make a long story short, he had a tantrum and when I told him we were leaving, he said he wasn't going any where. Needless to say, this ruined my night.  Trey is very ungrateful and only thinks about himself. I try my best to be a good mother and give my children the best.  But again, I am not appreciated.

I didn't think things could get any worst.  Well, I was wrong.  My husband and I got into an argument and he told me I am a moocher.  I am a moocher because he pays the mortgage.  I pay all of the other bills in the house and take care of Trey but I am a moocher.  I am tired of my children and my husband.  I have seriously considered leaving and moving out on my own.  I have also considered leaving Trey with his father. Since I am a moocher, he can pay all of the bills himself.  My husband thinks he can say anything to me and then pretend like nothing happened.  However, I don't forget.  I may forget but I don't forget  I am tired of being slapped in the face and unappreciated.  One day..............................................

Tired

Happy Easter. God is alive. You do everything possible to help your children become law abiding God fearing children of God. You sacrifice so much for them.  However, at times, I feel they do not appreciate what I do or even care. My daughter is lost in the world and seems clueless. I pray that she is delivered from Satan's hold on her life.  Everyday my son complains and whines about EVERYTHING! No matter what you do, he complains. I am so discouraged and tired of their behavior. I know children are gifts from God but sometimes I have my doubts. Some days I just want to throw in the towel. I know I am not the only parent who feels this way. I pray one day the rewrds of my labor wil be appreciated.

I am so Tired

I was up until after 2:00 am working on my dissertation.  Today Trey and I went to two Easter egg hunts.  We had fun.  I will post a picture later.  I worked on my dissertation over 5 hours.  We will be at Disneyworld next week.

Updates

The following events have occurred in my life over the past two years:

•  I am still working on my doctorate degree.  I have finished my classes and I am now writing my dissertation.  I pray I graduate in December.
• Endia enrolled at AU.  She had to leave the second semester due to extenuating circumstances.  She returned in the fall of 2012 and guess what, she had to leave again.  If and when she returns to college, she will foot the bill.
• Endia returned home, got a job, quit her job, and moved in with her boyfriend in Jan. 2013. I am totally disappointed but guess what, this is her life.  I keep her in my prayers.
• The situation with Endia has made me really reflect on my life.  boy do I have MANY regrets and have not forgiven myself from past mistakes.
• Trey skipped kindergarten and attended Harmony School last year.  He was 5 years old in a classroom with 1st through 3rd graders.  We discovered (in late 2012) that he is ADHD.  He is now on meds (lowest dose) and doing well in the 2nd grade at Catawba Trial Elementary School.  His grades and behavior are great.
• Trey exhibits traits of giftedness and  ADHD.  
•  We moved to a new home in July 2012.  We live somewhat in the country and have a nice swimming pool in the back yard.  We bought a hot tub before Christmas.
• I am working full time at a charter school.  I am also taking a few courses towards certification in learning disabilities.
• h yeah, I earned another master's degree in education administration in 2012.  Hopefully, one day I will put it to use.
• I am still trying to figure out my purpose in life.  Some days I feel like crawling disappearing.
• My stepfather passed a way.
• I am trying to find a hobby besides reading.

Monday is Upon Us

Oh, how I dread Mondays. Why? Because I have to return to work and a long tiresome week. I enjoy my job, teaching students with special needs, but I don't enjoy the other crap that goes along with it. I long for the days past of sitting in my office doing absolutely nothing. Well enough of my job. I had an uneventful day. We went to church but unfortunately, did not return this evening because we got behind schedule and Endia needed to go to volleyball tryouts. Trey really wanted to go to Puggles. He had a shoebox filled with goodies for a child in another country. I was looking forward to my evening bible study. But things did not work out as planned. No use in crying over spilled milk, I must press on. As I close, I would like to thank God for always being with me and loving me regardless of my flaws.

Birthday Boy!

Trey will be 5 years old on tomorrow. Boy, how time flies. I still remember when he was born and my difficult pregnancy. Trey's birthday party was held on Super Bowl Sunday at My gym. There were 12 children in attendance and the party was GREAT! I even had fun playing with the kiddos. He received a lot of wonderful presents. The theme of his party was Monster Trucks. I could not find a Monster Trucks balloon but he wore a Monster Truck sweat shirt and had a Monster Truck cake. The cake was really cute. Thanks to the Bakery at Walmart, I was able to have dirt pet constructed and I placed Hot Wheel cars and Monster Trucks on the cake. I am also starting a birthday journal for Trey this year. On tomorrow, we will have a birthday walk at school. Before school, he will eat breakfast at IHOP, take pictures in the pm, and we will do something else fun.

Shame on Me

I haven't written on my blog in over 2 years.  So many things  have happened since that time.  I will provide an update later.  However, I am still struggling with keeping my focus on God.  There are so many distractions in life.  I will write more on tomorrow.